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There comes a time in life when we need to learn how to forgive ourselves for not knowing any better. Everyone has an opinion on how they feel about certain things, everyone is doing their best in trying to make sense of what is happening in the world they live in. Some of us are here others are not, each holds true.

I find myself getting lost in the low vibrations that life has to offer, in therapy I heard this saying that goes something like this ” I often find myself in the bottom of the surface of the ocean needing to climb up to the top to interact with the world. At times I find some people that meet me at the bottom but that feeling feels unfamiliar. So I don’t know how to act when someone is willing to meet me where I am at.

I see a lot of injustice in the world, whether it’s the black lives matter movement or the humanitarian crisis in Yemen and or the pandemic sweeping the globe. I find myself asking myself where is the answer within all this noise that is happening, where do we find the clarity in everything happening? I see some moment’s throughout the day where people are existing but I ask myself another question is it existing or is it escaping?

Life isn’t a journey, it’s a story. How you tell your story is how others will define how you are. Even then who cares about how others view you live can either be shortlived and have an impact and or long-lived without even an imprint on how you managed to see come out of this world. Throughout life, people will be a mirrored image of who you are and what parts of you that need to be healed for you to grow.

Yes, life isn’t best lived when you only think about yourself but you are all you got in this world so make the best of who you are for yourself so that when the time comes in loving others, you would understand that the love you have for yourself is the love you have for others. THIS FOR ME HAS BEEN THE HARDEST PART.

Knowing yourself with any slight knowledge of empathy might have you feeling compassion for yourself and all your struggles, struggles don’t define who you are you overcoming them and making them part of the story is ultimately how you grow as a person. Trust in yourself to know that who you are is who you are. Don’t allow injustice in the world to control your viewpoint.

Every single soul on this planet is interconnected with the same source of energy that is controlling the world. As long as there is breathe there is life.

Find yourselves in this world full of beauty,

We grow, so do our habits, our purpose, our meaning, and our views. When we grow, we grow past the things that once served us.

Life doesn’t stop when we die, it goes on people come and go, and things happen. There is always a separation that will keep us apart from who we are. We follow the mainstream, and the mainstream follows the drama leaving us thinking that what we need is to fit into some fabricated fairytale that we seem to call reality.

Don’t get words confused with your thoughts; words are just here to entertain your thoughts; you can either feed into expanding it or feed into numbing choice will always be yours. Letting go doesn’t mean to hold onto anything, it merely means let go. Your views should never align with someone else belief; you have a mind of your own with your experience from a world that seems to be going down at times. Another day another person being murdered another protest being formed, another strict being marched. All this uneasily noise disrupting our peace.

Can we ever reach of a place of divine light, or wholeness with one’s self, yes sure go become a monk somewhere in the mountain and forget the material world, that will work. You’ll lose out on life, I am not saying to you give yourself up to the idea of wanting peace. Coming to acceptance and understanding that you control your own emotion will serve you better than letting your emotions get the best of you. You never win with your emotions that are scattered, they radiate in places, allowing them to hit people who don’t understand where you are coming from.

growing out of a lot of abuse growing up, I realized that accepting it for what it was is the best blessing that I could’ve gone through. Don’t talk about your pain, talk about the power that overcame the pain that leads you to build a better life for yourself. Read this part out loud, FUCK THE REST, worry about how you are going to take care of you, no one has your back as much as you have your own.

Don’t live in the shadows of others; everyone has an inner light; everything is interconnected to the divine light. Watch the power of the mouth, gossip is one hell of a drug, every dose will keep you in the same circle asking yourself where did my time go? Take what you want from this reading, I am just writing.

With Love and light, I hope you find yourselves in this world full of beauty, regardless of the outcome.

Unsheltered emotions

Why relationships fail, after noticing certain things throughout my life, I was gifted the ability to see past all obstacles through words.

Life wasn’t always apparent, that was never a thing I focused on; we all go through lessons. Lessons that repeat themselves in many different ways, regardless of who you are in the end, everything is interconnected throughout seeing the pattern. When we become comfortable with things, we lose interest and lose respect. Many of us carry the wounds of our childhood into adulthood, leaving behind the child that needed caring and loving.

We’ve been in isolation now for the past two months; this isn’t anything new to me. I love being alone at times, just being the observer. One advice I can give you coming out of a long relationship, if you love somebody and care for them, let them be, You won’t always get the answers you need from that person. Don’t try to show to much emotion people don’t understand emotion when pain is involved; heal yourself by letting the other person grow. Communication is bliss when coming to an understanding. Know that connection isn’t always an option. Regardless of how bad you think you might want something to know that maybe it just was meant not to work out that way.

One thing I never understood was religion, even though I respect people’s beliefs. Faith never hit me.

We are humans, and we can change what we don’t like, by how we react.
Some people will leave that up to God to help them improve who they are without taken any accountability in their actions. Most times, when we don’t like certain things in people, it’s because it’s our insecurity. Many things in life are idiosyncratic. We linearly view life, allowing certain things to fog up the bigger picture. Time isn’t in our favor. The more we waste, the less we live up to our essential purpose.

I noticed a pattern in my life that I attract extremely broken souls. People are always trying to test my beliefs; in the past, I would put up a good fight now. I just let it be—there no need for users to state what we don’t like. Not liking something is also an extremely subjective view of seeing the world.

The world is happening as we speak regardless of what happens inside of the world; it’s happening. Humans have a hard time seeing it happen. Look beyond the surface, look for the soul that speaks to humans and learn how to embrace all things, not just the things that feed your flesh. Nothing goes with you when you die; the only thing left behind is the lesson you choose to teach people that will forever impact them in a good or bad way.

Life without understanding and reasoning becomes a place of unsheltered emotions, and those will be the death of experience in the present.

THE FEELING OF FEELING

Feel something, or you’ll lose yourself to this numbing feeling that once helped you heal. Find yourself in the things that you love. Forget the outside noise that tells you that you aren’t worthy of love. Everything is just a distraction of where you need to go. You’ve been there before. Don’t go down that same path hold everything true to yourself and let go of all the distraction. When everything feels distant, get close that when you’ll find yourself on the clutter. You will only need to lose yourself to find yourself, and if losing yourself means letting go, then let go. Because tonight is when we become us again.

The more we think, the less we become.

The more we think, the less we become.

We are born alone; we die alone. The in-between is where life is lived. There are so many roads we take as people. Many of us get lost; we lose ourselves to the sidesteps in life. Everything happening is the way it’s supposed to be. Don’t get lost in the world of comparing your life to someone’s life. We all face our fears differently. We all escape different, we are all different, yet the same. How is that even possible? Life is a big mystery; we aren’t given much explanation on why we are here. We are just here. We can’t go around hating, and it’s a low vibration. It limits you from growth.

Fogged Vision

There is no right or wrong way of dealing with your emotions.
Emotions are just there to teach you a way of navigating a way that you feel about a situation that you don’t understand.

People go through life either masking a part of them that they hide from the outside world or hide from themselves. Letting this not affect how you feel is a skill learned into moving past the feeling of low energy.

People die every day; we don’t hear about the ones that never left an impact on the world; we only hear about the ones that die with fame or mass murders from a tragic outcome. The point is you never know when you’re last day here on earth is. Everything is as it is, be present, and let go of things that don’t hold any truth to you. I never understand the conditioning parts of the human mind; we hold onto things that are just as empty as our promises we make to ourselves at times.

Breaking out of character comes from a deep place of hurt that many will dismiss from not understanding everyone deals with things differently. We are all going through this thing together as a collective whole. There is a saying out there “thinking positive all the time is a negative trait; understanding that negative is negative is a positive trait.”

Seeing things for what they are without labeling them is also a learned skill. Learning how to shutdown how you feel a lot takes of work; there is a lot of breaking and letting go into changing what you need for yourself.

People go through their journey without realizing that their perspective is a fogged image of who they are.

Self Blame

Move past the notion that fairytales exist. They don’t within itself is just an illusion waiting for the magician or so-called god to relieve itself.
I am just here to entrain the notion that there is what man calls self. There is a lot of things that we feel. We act on emotion rather than action.
Best believe both are as equally important when dealing with understanding yourself.
See patterns in people that you see within yourself. Don’t blame those patterns onto them. Blame yourself for not breaking free out of those patterns that became the prison bars to your life,
Setting yourself free isn’t something that one can do in relying on others for information. It understands that you are in control of how you feel, regardless of how spiteful or hurt the other person is going through.
Some people act out the pureness of spite not to make you feel like shit about yourself but to relate to their self misery. Laugh it up at the end of the day we all face this thing called death and that when we start to live. We hold true what will disappear in time, and we hold time like it’s never going to run out. We are all running out of it. Don’t take another second for granted and start to understand what others do or say to you isn’t about you.