There comes a time in life when we need to learn how to forgive ourselves for not knowing any better. Everyone has an opinion on how they feel about certain things, everyone is doing their best in trying to make sense of what is happening in the world they live in. Some of us are here others are not, each holds true.

I find myself getting lost in the low vibrations that life has to offer, in therapy I heard this saying that goes something like this ” I often find myself in the bottom of the surface of the ocean needing to climb up to the top to interact with the world. At times I find some people that meet me at the bottom but that feeling feels unfamiliar. So I don’t know how to act when someone is willing to meet me where I am at.

I see a lot of injustice in the world, whether it’s the black lives matter movement or the humanitarian crisis in Yemen and or the pandemic sweeping the globe. I find myself asking myself where is the answer within all this noise that is happening, where do we find the clarity in everything happening? I see some moment’s throughout the day where people are existing but I ask myself another question is it existing or is it escaping?

Life isn’t a journey, it’s a story. How you tell your story is how others will define how you are. Even then who cares about how others view you live can either be shortlived and have an impact and or long-lived without even an imprint on how you managed to see come out of this world. Throughout life, people will be a mirrored image of who you are and what parts of you that need to be healed for you to grow.

Yes, life isn’t best lived when you only think about yourself but you are all you got in this world so make the best of who you are for yourself so that when the time comes in loving others, you would understand that the love you have for yourself is the love you have for others. THIS FOR ME HAS BEEN THE HARDEST PART.

Knowing yourself with any slight knowledge of empathy might have you feeling compassion for yourself and all your struggles, struggles don’t define who you are you overcoming them and making them part of the story is ultimately how you grow as a person. Trust in yourself to know that who you are is who you are. Don’t allow injustice in the world to control your viewpoint.

Every single soul on this planet is interconnected with the same source of energy that is controlling the world. As long as there is breathe there is life.

No winning

If I lied I lose myself

If I tell the truth I lose you.

Checking in

A lot has been on my mind lately. Feel’s like life has this trick that it likes to play . At times I feel completely lost and other times I feel like I am on top of this world.

I am just figuring it out. To anyone out there struggling for a purpose, your purpose is just being here. been soul searching for my purpose and the more I search the more lost I am. Don’t repeat toxic cycles, find new meaning to life and learn how to live by them.

I’ve listen to much to how I should live my life, Trying to be other, losing myself in the long run.

I want to do better for myself so that I can do better for others. I am not a poet, I am not a rapper, I am not a person that has had a bad life, I am a person that has seen some stuff I wish I never saw. I know people are going to say well, get out there and be happy. Happiness is far gone when you enter a world that is completely dead. I might sound negative to some but this is my reality, something is missing. Staying in this cycle of hurt will never heal me. People talk all this shit about how great their life is but I can guarantee they are filling a hole somewhere deep within. Life is pain and pain isn’t forever. Just as life isn’t forever.