Heartbeat

Look within the heart; you’ll find that we all share a rhythm that gives us life.

chasing

Sometimes life feels fucked.

So I pause.

Pauses need a reset, so now I hit reserve —the tape breaks.

Can’t seem to find the connection to the wifi, so I unplug.

I find the nearest outlet, and I plug in the charger.

My phone is dead, so I sit with my thoughts.

I see a dog run by, so I run after it.

It leads to this place that seems familiar.

There are these walls that are incredibly vivid in color.

I couldn’t see that day. I wake up. Here I am again repeating the same old toxic cycle.

Cancer

The truth is that I am lost. Life without you has been terrifying. There is no codependent relationship anymore. With you, there was a purpose that lived inside. You gave me a purpose; you gave me an excuse.

I don’t feel much without, wish you would’ve erased me. A big part of me forgave you; I don’t think I forgive myself. I felt too much with you now; I feel nothing. Yes, I go through my phases, never look back, though. There is nothing there; there is only here which is now. Won’t be putting this much emotion by saying fuck you this time. This time I will say thank you, thank you for giving me the power to still be here without you this isn’t a breakup; it’s a growth. You will forever be a part of my life.

Are you ready

Are you ready?
No.
Why?
I don’t know it’s been a while.
Aren’t you ready for love again?
I don’t know if I’m up to getting hurt again.
You only allow yourself to hurt if you choose to see the hurt side of things.
Save the bullshit
It’s not bullshit; it is life.
What do you even know about love?
Not much, I know that love is a beautiful thing once experience.

Look Past the sky

What left you gasping for air, did you find yourself in the waves of the current or did you get washed back to shore. Letting the universe guide you to the final destination, or did you see life in the sun. When you fell distant, lookout passed sky; see behind the material that holds us together.

untittled

When life becomes a place of chaos, it starts with what you allow in your field of energy.

I talk a lot about the ego, embrace your ego, better yet understand your ego. Curb it like you would curb your dog. Let it sit there and wait. Wait on; impurities that make you think the way you think.

Learn how to let go and accept what is in front of you.

Breathe again

Heal the heart, the mind will follow. When everything seems distant reach near and grab the wind, your problems aren’t as deep instead surfaced. Allow yourself to breathe again.

Drowning in the storm

You left me confused. I was seeing you change like the drift of the waves crashing the shoreline. Each wave more uncertain of the last one. Seeing you become the typhoon, I knew I didn’t want to drown in you any longer, knew I had to hit the surface to breathe again.

I think it’s a poem

I was thinking to myself about memories that I held onto, thinking that maybe you grew up a lot faster then I did. Seeing that accepting people for who they are is just another unlearned skill in not knowing any better in realizing that things are the way they are.

You were my middle ground, and I was your teacher. I guess that just the way it was supposed to be. Seeing and hearing is only another one of the senses that lie to us because feeling isn’t an option when it comes down to listening to what the heart needs.