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The Numbing Feeling

Early summer of 2018, I went through a manic episode. My mental health was at it’s lowest. After cancer, they tell you that you became cured of the diseases. Your physical body may have recovered, but your insight on the way you view the world changes. Everyone is doing there best. Doing there best isn’t […]

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Five Years later

Usually, I would have shared this news instantly with the world. I walked into the year being five-year cancer-free. I was diagnosed with Central nervous system lymphoma at the age of 25 on this date four years ago. I have been through depression, I have been through my body changing on me, my mental health […]

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The truth about surviving Cancer

The truth about surviving brain cancer, you don’t die, but everything around you does. The feeling of trying to understand this thing has left in a dark place. Everything has been moving fast, and I need to slow down before I lose a sense of what is happening around me. Family is getting older, mom […]

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No winning

If I lied I lose myself If I tell the truth I lose you.

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The Novel waiting to be read

Every person you meet is a novel. Some are difficult to read; others have pages ripped apart from past damage. Some even fabricated to fit a narrative that pertains to where they are now. It’s been four years since I was cancer-free, today I shared it with people. There was a push back from within […]

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Gas Lighting

I think too, deep.  Emotions carry all this information that I try and understand over-analyzing my whole existence.                                                         The intro  Somewhere in life, we learn how to be […]

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Dead Presidents

We worship dead people on paper. What if things were a little different. What if you started showing the world color to a colorless world. We are all trapped to something. Try and break free of what life throws at you. I wish you could see what it is like knowing what it is to […]

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Four Years later a New outlook

We live in a world that is separated, divided, and, most importantly, depressed. Everyone is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Ever since I can remember, I have always been the outcast. There‚Äôs nothing wrong with being the outcast. During my darkest moments, only a few people shined while others simply pretended to be […]

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Breaking up, moving on

It’s not you that I hold onto. I don’t even miss you. I wrote about you before and felt completely empowered. Been checking up on you every now and then, you still never showed up. I can say that you standing me up has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. At […]

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HEART AND BRAIN

Life. We all have it, we all experience it differently. I wanted to touch base on something that my experience taught me. The heart and brain will never be one. They are not friends and will never be friends. My heart is depressed and my brain is overloaded with information. Not all are equal, just […]

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Comparison Is the Thief

I don’t really know where this is going. I just turned 28 years old a couple of weeks ago. I feel like I am 90 years old. The more I say this the more I feel so confused. Life is confusing. Maybe I am just confused. I know somewhere deep within lays happiness. Happiness isn’t […]

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Money or Laughter

You might think that you may know me based off of my old writing or my old pictures. Maybe you even think I have the world at my fingertips. Yes, I traveled the world with life after cancer, but is that happiness? Is happiness measured by material?