I am tired of fake smiles, fake people, and an artificial world. I tried to hold it together for things and people, somethings never change. We all have flaws, we all do stuff the makes our egos feel a bit better. I need to heal, and healing doesn’t start with the people that hurt you. Healing begins with forgiving yourself first, then forgiving the people that hurt.
The same toxic cycles will never heal you; some people never grow past their high-school days. I used to think that I wanted to fit in. There is nothing to fit into a world that is already dead. We are preoccupied with bullshit every day. I need to and want to get the fuck out of this mental prison.
As I go through my journey of life, I start to see where I survive isn’t where I am supposed to be. I don’t belong in a lethal cycle. I know myself better than anyone else. I know how I think. Life after disease, I rose to notice I wanted to be more me then be more what others want to me to be.